Saturday, July 03, 2010

life on hold

I wonder if I'll begin to hear muzak all around me, as everything is simply on hold right now.  We're up at my parents' house, waiting for my dad to be deemed well enough to be released from the hospital, and I'm waiting for my hubby to clock a bazillion hours on home repair projects so that we can attempt to reside at home again, amongst an environment that would probably have the authorities take our children away if they did an inspection.  (Shhhh!)  Eh, I exaggerate, of course, because it's a temporary thing, but truly every nook and cranny at home will need to be reorganized and cleaned up after this massive job.  Forget the things like new baseboards and painting the walls, those things will come later... honestly, if those are done before Christmas, I'll be happy.  But man oh man, I am itching to get home and start getting life back in order. 

I haven't blogged much as of lately, because as the above paragraph demonstrates, there's not that much new going on in my head.  I've read half a dozen books in the last two weeks' holding pattern that we're living in, and besides visiting with family, vacuuming and doing laundry, not much is going on day to day.  My anxiety level just continues to increase as I try to envision what we'll be returning to, and wondering how I'm going to try tackling the work that needs to be done while three kids run circles around my feet.  Not even sure how we'll make it to our beds, but I am determined to sleep in our own beds when we get home in a few days.  Determined. 

And I think that will be the key idea for the next few weeks- determination.  I will have to stay determined to get the job done, and determined not to lose my cool with the kids, as there's no doubt that they will continue to be out of sorts when we get home and nothing is as it should be.  I will most definitely have to be determined to be patient, as nothing will get done immediately, and that is a reminder I'll probably need  47,992 times a day. 

It all comes down to the hard work.  Hubby has been facing it for two weeks now, while we've been circling on the runway.  It will soon by my turn to take off down the runway facing a long, long trip.  Wish us all safe travels!


Ready for takeoff,

2 comments:

  1. You can do it. (And I don't envy you one tiny bit!)

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  2. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I enjoyed our trip visiting family, but I'm glad to be home.

    Even though we aren't in the midst of home repairs, I feel like there's so much to be done.

    And what's with this blazing CT heat??

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