all work and no blogging makes me a dull mama

Forgive me, reader, for I have (bloggy) sinned. It's been eight days since my last (lame-o) post. I've wanted to blog, but with work, commuting, and the lack of Interwebs in our house for a full five loooooong days, let's just say that it didn't work out.

I've blogged in my head, though-- posts that conveyed the extreme emotions that have been swirling around. Perhaps it's best that those posts not be saved for posterity, since there would have been lots of cursing and a general extreme-opposite-of-merriment kind of tone.

Beyond the time and connectivity issues, I've struggled lately to find my voice. This isn't the forum to talk about my work experiences, yet that makes up the vast majority of my daily experiences. I'm not privy to the funny things that Red and Pudge say all day (and my Facebook statuses have suffered for that loss, as my online friends can attest to). Our family time has shrunk to the bare minimum, which is mostly comprised of the basics-- waking up, packing bags for the day, prepping meals, eating meals, cleaning up from meals, bathing and going to bed. Lather. Rinse. Freaking repeat.

Bah. I haven't had time to think a thought that isn't either work-related or woe-is-me, and I'm ashamed to continue to miss my former carefree lifestyle, what with our nation's unemployment rate so stinking high. But it all leaves very little to blog about.

Though I'm feeling dull, I have to admit that it's getting a wee bit easier each day. The biggest freak outs for me always revolve around changes, and it's inevitable that I feel a bit calmer once things begin to feel routine. Our alternating days schedule is seared into my brain now, and I can tell you down to the minute when we need to walk out of the house for each day of the week. A plethora of charts adorn my refrigerator, and even my non-list-making boys are willingly following along. One day at a time, right?

Now that the internet is once again coming through that series of tubes connected to my house, I'm hoping that the blog will get a little attention now and again. Maybe I'll even think of something original to say.


Penitently yours,